quarantined....

haha.. omg.. its been sometime since i blogged sia.. hha... blog already rotting as much as its owner ba...

sian ah!!! i have been quarantined lar... for 11 days and 18 hrs le.. nt including 2 days of high fever. omg. chicky pox sux!!!! argh wad a time to get chicken pox lor. haix. missed out on so many things. and since i got into poly, this is the 1st time i had stayed @ home for like more den 1 week without going out. i really cant take it sia everyday sit @ home no one, only myself and 4 walls if my room and my pc. sick of this liao. i miss so many ppl.. argh.. my niece, nephew, aunt. omg i think i gt 1 mth+ nver see them le..

recently everynite jus pia game only like some mad ass... nw resting liao haha. i feel tat i had neglected many tings. family, frens and so on. its been some time since i seen the gang - rs, ym, ahboy, gab, tommy, yh, zhu, sharon, jy and so on.. haha.. also to justina =D thx guys for tokin to me during my quarantine.

such a pity tat i missed tommy's b'day celebration. but nvm when i recover, i shall havoc and see ya guys again! ahah...

really feelin kinda sian lor... everyday like no life, house oso no one... F*** it. i really suddenly feel like goin down to my aunt house but i scared later pass virus to my bro, and my little niece and nephew. *feelin pathetic nw*

anyway, i'm still lookin on the bright side. 2 more days to my end of quarantine!!! hhaa.. celebration time.

lastly, i wanna thank my aunt(for preparing my meals), and my 2 cousin sisters.. haha everyday delivering food over to me and caring for me during my quarantine.. omg i really feel very touched. otherwise i think i will really die n rot @ home and no one noe about it. haha i think i will thank them personally again when i am totally recovered.

graduated...

haix... finish exams like last week? and now i feel as if i am rotting le... wanna find a job but feel abit lazy sia.. haix...

recently felt abit down lar.. but thx ym and sharon lar.. tok to me abit at least felt abit betta... most probably is due to stress ba.. stress tat i will nt do well this semester. although i have abit of confidence tat i might get betta results tis sem, i still have that feelin that wad if i screw up something or wadever.
hate the feelin of failing exams.

anyways, maybe feelin bored ba. so thot of many things recently, my aim in life, what will happen to me after ns, when will i get my gf etc. i feel so useless while thinkin bout these matters. made me feel that. compared to others, i am like a useless bum, other den knowing hw to play games, slack, what else do i noe?! i am bad in my studies, do not noe how to please people, childish, noisy... seriously cant find the good pts in me..

there are too many things in my brain that i want to say here, but i cant and i do not wanna write here... too many things... but no one to tell to. cos its difficult to find a person who can understand me, yet listen to me whine. but i blame no one either.. because i seldom show my feelin that i am sad, angry etc.. i'm sick of tryin so hard to stay happy and keep all those greivances inside me... nonetheless, most of the unhappy stuff are over le ba... lol... actually i oso dun understand wad this post is for ba... its like crap tat i dun understand either

*btw recently i feel that i am getting from bad to worse in expressing myself*
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