graduated...

haix... finish exams like last week? and now i feel as if i am rotting le... wanna find a job but feel abit lazy sia.. haix...

recently felt abit down lar.. but thx ym and sharon lar.. tok to me abit at least felt abit betta... most probably is due to stress ba.. stress tat i will nt do well this semester. although i have abit of confidence tat i might get betta results tis sem, i still have that feelin that wad if i screw up something or wadever.
hate the feelin of failing exams.

anyways, maybe feelin bored ba. so thot of many things recently, my aim in life, what will happen to me after ns, when will i get my gf etc. i feel so useless while thinkin bout these matters. made me feel that. compared to others, i am like a useless bum, other den knowing hw to play games, slack, what else do i noe?! i am bad in my studies, do not noe how to please people, childish, noisy... seriously cant find the good pts in me..

there are too many things in my brain that i want to say here, but i cant and i do not wanna write here... too many things... but no one to tell to. cos its difficult to find a person who can understand me, yet listen to me whine. but i blame no one either.. because i seldom show my feelin that i am sad, angry etc.. i'm sick of tryin so hard to stay happy and keep all those greivances inside me... nonetheless, most of the unhappy stuff are over le ba... lol... actually i oso dun understand wad this post is for ba... its like crap tat i dun understand either

*btw recently i feel that i am getting from bad to worse in expressing myself*
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